Sindie Sensual

Sindie Sensual

Sindie had it all; a great body, great car, nice apartment, lots of friends and men with money. Sindie had no problem getting what she wanted even if it belonged to someone else. Sindie had exquisite taste. It was nothing but the best for her. Now keep in mind that this is all according to Sindie. Her life was perfect and she always made time to tell check others. If you did something or said something, you can bet that Sindie was gonna put you in your place. Her favorite saying was “I am a brunette not a blond” meaning I’m smarter than you so I have the right to tell you what I think. But to everyone else Sindie was a dense brunette with blond tendencies. Sindie kept a very healthy supply of men around. They would leave money in envelops on her door step, floral arrangements on her car, she had a breakfast date almost every day of the week and offers for dinner most nights. Sindie had it all. She was envied by most and liked by few. Sindie never really understood why women always hated on her. Maybe they were just jealous of her beauty. After all she turned heads everywhere she went. She had a killer smile and always gave polite, warm and inviting conversation. Some man was always making it rain one hundred dollar bills on Sindie.

These men who were always so attracted to Sindie were mostly married men, which is one of the reasons why women were always hating on Sindie. She was sleeping with their husbands. When asked about it Sindie would just say “well his wife must not have been doing her job or he would not have to come to me”. “Married women get comfortable and begin to let themself go so their man loose interests, so when he sees someone as beautiful and well put together as I am he can’t help himself, so don’t be mad at me for doing what you can’t”. The single men who sought after Sindie were the ones who had heard about her and wanted to see what the talk was about. These were the hit it and quit it brothas.

Little did they know, that each time Sindie lured one of them into her bed she had a hidden agenda. Sindie would meet a guy today and an hour later she would invite him into her bed.  Sindie didn’t want to be alone. Deep down inside she was trying to fill an empty space; she was trying to fix an old wound. By sleeping with married men she hoped to experience just a taste of what it felt like to belong to someone. Each time she was with a married man she would pretend that she was his wife though the men never knew. It was hard for her to build a relationship with single men because they didn’t take her serious, for them she was just sex. For married men she was just the pretty little thing on the side. No one really wanted her. She was a pretty whore.

So, time and time again Sindie was left alone in her bed licking another wound that was now being self-inflicted.  Her tragedy began when she was rapped as a teenager by a family member. She learned to hide her pain because no one believed her. When she tried to get help from the person she trusted most, but her mother turned her back and blamed it on Sindie. A part of her died. She lost faith in love and family and God. Because she was such a beautiful girl men were always attracted to her, unfortunately they were filled with lustful spirits and Sindie had to endure being raped as a child several times by more than one person. Now her beauty has become a curse. Her predators were the men in her mother’s life which made her mother resent her beauty so much that she failed to protect her own daughter.

Sindie grew up trying to cover her scars by attempting to fill it with the same thing that caused it – lust. It was all she knew. Women envied Sindie, girls wanted to be like her when they say all that she had, but they never knew the Sindie behind the beautiful smile. They never saw all the tears she cried or knew of the pain she felt every day of her life, the loneliness, the betrayal. You see Sindie perfected wearing a mask. She was a great deceiver. She was already dead so sin meant nothing to her. She made a pact with the devil to lure as many men into sin as she could so that they would surely die to pay back the ones who hurt her and God for letting them.

Her name was Sindie (S-I-N-D-I-E). Sindie’s greatest wish for man was for them to sin and die.

Loretta M. Green

October 10, 2011